And so the story continues as we wait.

I know I said in the last post that I would update to what happened from my latest appointment but being that I needed to wait till I knew when my next appointment would be, I did not think I needed to post an update with a wait till next post topic.

So the appointment with the lady doctor was a disappointment, I left her office more frustrated than going in, and was in her actual office with her for all of 5 minutes. I told her I was wanting to go with the "resection surgery" (one of the 3 options) and all she said was "OK I'll send the referral to the surgeon in Edmonton"
I did not think that I would be sent on yet another referral appointment, I kinda thought I would have been told "OK lets set it up" and be done with this issue before the end of the year.
I told her my concerns with my heart and being anemic, but that did not seem to make a lick of difference.
And to top it all off as we were ending our 5 minute appointment she tells me "oh and you need to redo your PAP test in 3 months, it came back inconclusive". GREAT! just what I want more issues. NOT!
So the drive home with my hubby was really quite, we never really talked the whole drive, oh I guess I should mention the said 5 minute appointment was a 2 and a bit hour drive away.
When I dropped him off at work I told him I was not waiting the 3 months to redo the PAP test, that I was going to make an appointment ASAP so that if it comes back with a bad result I can take that to the surgeon.
So my next PAP with my family doctor is December 6Th and I hope my body is on track at least with that day to do it.
And the surgeon appointment that is just a consult is January 30Th 2012. that's a whole 2 months away, I can do it, really no choice but to wait.
Not really much more to say, actually its kinda boring.
So we continue to wait. :(

These days!

Well it's been awhile since I last posted here on my blog, I felt like I needed a break from it because I think I was turning it into a pity party for my grieving of mom.
I would like to get back into posting about life and thoughts on it, I will post about my grieving sometimes, just not as much as I have been, putting down on here my thought and feelings about grieving is one way i deal with it, seeing myself in writing helps me see me.
Lots of things have happened around here since thanksgiving (my last post), so grab a seat, get comfy let me tell you about it.
We spent a few days at my in-laws place (a 9 hour drive with 3 kids and a dog) and let me tell you I could not wait to get back home. I was having a hard time being there because I was worried about the rest of my family.
The day after we got home I had a doctors appointment for a woman issue that I had been putting on the back burner and needed to get dealt with, I had not been for a physical in 4 yrs, Rhiannon was 6 months old when i last had one. I know, bad because all that has happened in the last year, you would think I would be jumping to do so. I have developed a scare of not wanting to find out something is wrong, and also scared to not finding out soon enough something is wrong. a war in my head that won't go away.
So after seeing the doctor, I was referred to a special woman doctor, in another town, and also a trip to see my heart doctor about why I am passing out. and not to mention a lot of blood work, and a 24hr heart monitor.
I seen the lady doctor a few weeks back, she gave me 3 options ad sent me home to decide what I wanted to do. (it's nice to be in control of the decisions of your own body).
The day I as at her office I had a voicemail at home to call my other doctor regarding the blood work, it came back I was really anemic (not a surprise)
I also seen the heart doctor a few days after that, and he basically said with my heart having the issues it has (had my whole life) being anemic is making it work harder than it has to, and it also is throwing in extra beats sometimes, he helped me make my decision to go for the surgery to fix my woman problem and after that everything else should fall into place and go back to normal.
So this coming Monday I go back to see the woman doctor and talk about my decision for the surgery, I'm not sure when it will be, I'm sure I will find out around then. So I will fill you all in about that when I know more.
Aidan and Edina have had their 1st report cards already this year and BOTH are doing amazing, I am so proud of them for doing so well.
Edina goes back for a check on her eyes in December, I am crossing my fingers her eye is correcting itself, the eye doctor wants to check Aidan and Rhiannon at this time as well for the same problem, I am not worried about Aidan I would have noticed by now if something was up with his eyes, Rhiannon has not started school yet so I'm not sure about her, I am going to assume she is fine as well.
Aidan is gonna be 10 years old in a few weeks, and Edina 7 in a month. time is flying by, I am trying to soak it all in.
So I think that is all for now, I will try and post once a week, and keep on top of this blog thing, after all it is something I will have for me to look back on down the road. not sure how long I will keep it going, but for sure for a while longer.
anyway until next time.