This is Life!

I know i said I would post about how our Easter went, and so here it is, better late than never right?
So Easter day April/24/11 marked 2 months that mom passed away, and for that we showed Dad how much we learned from Mom a we made a huge supper, it included *taking a deep breath* turkey, ham, mashed potatoes, stuffing (dressing), green bean casserole, turnips, mustard sauce (for the ham), gravy, 5 pies (not store bought) they were 2 apple, 2 pumpkin, and 1 chocolate cream.
And other than the gravy (which was a bit lumpy) dad said we did well.
Thanks mom for teaching us how to put on a traditional supper, now we know why you started early in the mornings, its a ton of work.

Rhiannon had a follow-up appointment 2 days ago with her Physical, occupational, and speech therapy.
let me recap for those of you who don't know.
When Rhiannon was born, her placenta had ripped and caused a lot of blood loss for her out of 4 grades of abruption, we had a grade 3 abruption, the 4Th is death for both of us, and alot of the time babies who suffer a grade 3 abruption die.
No doctor thought she would survive, and if she did we were told she would never walk, talk, or do any f the things she does today.
 Rhiannon survived hers, but did suffer some oxygen deprivation due to the blood loss,
at 9 months of age i knew she needed help, I was not going to take what the doctors said, and i was not able to give it to her,
so with the help of a health nurse we entered into a program where children with physical delays and their parents learn how to move forward and learn how to teach a baby/child to meet milestones with physical and occupational therapies.
and with many appointments and hrs a day working with her at home she was classed "normal" 2 yrs ago.
On Thursday her appointment was to just make sure she was where he should be still.
she did all of what she was asked to do and more.
The occupational therapist asked Rhiannon to draw a circle and showed her a circle so she could draw it, she did it,
then she was asked to draw a square, and she did. then she was asked to draw a +, but she drew a circle instead,
she was asked to try again and drew a circle again. then Rhiannon asked for help and the occupational therapist showed her how to draw the first line and then the second, and asked Rhiannon to try,
Rhiannon said "no" "you did it, Good job your so smart" she told the therapist, and the room broke out into laughter,
she has come along way and beyond what anyone thought she could do.
She is a miracle some tell me, but i like to think of it as a child who has beat the odds and gives others hope to push forward and not take what doctors tell you to heart, because no one can tell you your child's outcome better than your child.

I am proud of all 3 of my children, they show me what life is all about when i all I want to do is give up, they make me want to be a better person.

Moving Forward.

Its been a while since my last post, I have been i guess what they call a bit withdrawn from life, I tend to my kids, do a bit of house work, do the minimum of whats required in life, i feel sick but i don't think its a bug of any kind just the workings of the grief/stress. I am working on it, some days are good, others are not.
So let me tell you whats on my mind these days.
Spring is here, and so it is supposed to mark a new beginning for most people, after a long hard cold winter so many are embracing it. I am too, some what, but still am stuck in my grief, and I know I am not alone.
Easter is on Sunday, and so is mom's 2 months in heaven, We are planning a family Easter gathering, kinda like we did for Thanksgiving, except without mom here with us, It makes me really look back and be truly thankful we were able to have mom for Thanksgiving, guess all her advice to us girls though life is really gonna shine though, because we are gonna have to wing this on our own, we can't ask mom how do you do this? or how much of that? so here we go, this is it, this is what we know, I'll make sure i post about how it all goes.
I was looking outside yesterday, and thinking i was gonna have to get my butt out there and mark out my "new garden" spot, and start deciding what I'm gonna plant, for sure I know beets. LOL i promised mom i would plant them so Lena could have her pickled beets (her favorite), and I am gonna have to make sure dad gets his bread and butter pickles too. I'm gonna have to raid her recipe stash to get her recipes for them.
Among the garden and endless yard work (new yard) the kids also want some chickens, for fresh eggs and fresh chicken meat, and at first i was kinda not going for it but with the research i have done on the hormones and crap the non organic chicken farmers use and the whole cancer thing, more and more i am looking at aiming for an organic/green house family someday, for me it just makes sense. its not just chickens but most of our meat from the store and produce, if you have the money and ability to buy organic than great but where i am and the cost of fuel to drive, i think we are gonna try this organic living thing, it will take time but i hope to have our home organic/green living in 5yrs. wish me luck. :)
Rhiannon goes next week for a follow up in her physical/occupational therapy, she was last there when she was almost 2, now she is almost 4, I know she is on target to where she should be, if anything it nice to show them how far she has come in her almost 4 yrs of life, from a baby that all the doctors said would never even breathe on her own, to this happy child who talks your ear off, and has so much to live for and teach others with her determination to prove everyone WRONG. I love all 3 of my kids so much and I am thankful everyday i have them, nothing comes even close to the love i have for my babies, when i gave birth to Aidan mom had said to me "now you can watch your heart walk outside your body" and boy was she right. X 3.
Dad has his next appointment for his next surgery, its May 18Th and we are all kinda nervous about it. lets hope it goes smoothly. I have all my ducks in order so i can be with him for it. agian i'll try and post more about how it goes.
Any way that's all for now from me, nothing exciting but it something. have a great day everyone.