I cant help but think back to 2010 Thanksgiving as the same holiday rolls around again this weekend.
It was the last holiday we celebrated with mom, yes we did have Christmas with her but being it was all a mess with her and dad in the hospital, and us sisters spent it away from our kids, it turned into anything but a celebration.
Last year we gave thanks to being able to be together, and show mom that us girls could pull off a nice traditional thanksgiving meal with all the knowledge she gave us, and if we were uncertain of some things we could still ask her. Today its all gone (except the knowledge she left behind). she is not here to be thankful for another year with her, its all a memory now.
We have to do it solo.
This year my little family of 5 are heading to see my husbands side of the family in southern Saskatchewan, I can't say that I'm looking forward to it, because so many things are running though my head. will my sisters and dad be okay this thanksgiving, being the first holiday we will not all be together, I worry so much about them all. To the point that I sometimes can't sleep.
But I need to understand we all have lives, and mom would not want us to forget about our other (spouses) families.
I know mom watches over us and hears our cries to her when we miss her to much, I know she stands with us as we face the times we have to do it solo, I know this because she is in our hearts, she said so just before she died.
This year even though I miss her more than words can say, I am thankful for all she has given to me, because without her I would not be me, and I would not have my 3 wonderful kids.
Thank you mom. I Love You, forever and always.
I also should say I'm thankful for dad as far s he has come, and happy to say he is now back to work FULL time, which is great, he needed to have something to do besides keep Doodles (his dog) company. I Love You Dad. you are such an inspiration to so many.
From my family to yours.................HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
