Just a poem I found.

It isn't letting go,
It's going on.
It isn't only shadows
and it isn't only dawn.
It isn't getting through it
it's letting it come through me,
not living in the darkness
though the darkness I can see.
It's living with the sorrow
but finding memories sweet,
it's knowing that it takes both sides
to make it all complete.
It's soaking up the sunshine
along with the rain
it's learning to let laughter
live side by side with pain.
It's knowing that the years
won't change a love that's real
or take away the joy you brought
or the sorrow that I feel.
It's knowing tears and laughter
can live on the same face,
and your impression on my heart
can never be erased.

not sure who wrote this, but it says so much to me on how I feel with loosing mom.
hope you think the same too.