I would normally ask how you are, but I know you are not OK, you are in the hospital still its been a week and half that you have been, you went in there because you tried to starve your body of the means to heal, you also admitted to being depressed and so we asked you to go in to heal your body and your mind, your body with the help of the doctors and nurses has healed for the most part but your mind has not, you have and you want to give up, you have lost the will to live, it hurts us all to know you don't wish to not be here with us, we need you dad and most of all we love you.
You were given the cancer diagnosis of the neck on September 14Th 2010, the day after you turned 63, and in 3 1/2 months you now look as if you were 83, mom was given hers just 24 hrs later, stage 4 lung cancer with little hope to survive, i know it must have been so much to deal with because we were all there too, you completed your treatments before Christmas and there is good hope for you to have the cancer gone, so many people go though this and some won't make it, in fact you know someone close to you that will not make it, she is known as you wife and my mother, her heart is broken just knowing you don't want to live, when she is fighting so hard to stay.
The picture above is the picture that says so many words to me, the tears in your eyes say you are proud to give me away as a wife to my husband, maybe even sad because you feel like your losing me, my hand on your arm as you guide me to my new future and your hand holding mine as you tell me you love me. Dad where did you go, i miss you, your body is here but with out your sound mind it feels as if we are grieving the loss of you. I still need my dad and my mom, we all do.
Please don't give up daddy we love you and we need your loving arms again to tell us you will hold us when we want to fall apart.
with love from: wrinkles.
I hope and pray that your Dad can find his way. My father has been fighting terminal cancer for over a year, doctors never thinking he would make it this far. He has amazing faith, and prayers can totally lift his spirit. He is always happy and hopefull. May you dad find the same will to live.
ReplyDeleteTHIS IS SOMETHING THAT WE ALL DO NOT WANT FOR ONE TO ENDOUR, A FEW YEARS BACK I'VE WATCHED MY FATHER-IN-LAW CRY WHEN HE FOUND OUT HE HAD LUNG CANCER, HE DID SLOWLY FALL INTO DEPRESSION OF HEARING THE SAME RESULTS AS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ARE HEARING, ITS A LONG ROAD TO WALK DOWN FEELING ALONE,I CAN'T SAY SOME WHAT OF "I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL" CAUSE WE ALL HAVE DIFFERENT EMOTIONS BUT THIS I CAN SAY...CORRINA YOU INSPIRE ME BY JUST BEING YOURSELF AND SHOWING OTHERS HOW BIG OF A HEART YOU'VE GOT AND WHAT A WONDERFUL PERSON YOU ARE, AND THAT IS BEING A TRUE FRIEND TO ONE AND OTHERS BUT MOST OF ALL TO YOUR MOM AND DAD.I PRAY FOR YOUR MOM & DAD TO HAVE THE STRENGTH AND WILL TO FIND THE POWER TO FIGHT THIS DISEASE,PRAYERS ARE WHAT IS NEEDED AND THAT I WILL DO FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY..TAKE CARE MY FRIEND AND HOPE FOR THE BEST!
ReplyDeleteMy dear friend,
ReplyDeleteYou have such an amazing heart, the will you have is hard to come by in most human beings, your sincerity, kindness, humblenes, and love are attributes that make you great - you got them from somewhere and I presume it is from your parents and for that I pray that our kind and loving Creator will grab hold of your parents' hands and encourage them to be as great as their daughter because they are their daughter. I pray that your dad can overcome this natural feeling of hoplesness - it is an emotion that is almost inevitable in the people who become sick; but he has the strength to carry on becuase he has so many reasons to carry on and I pray that he will be reminded that he has so much to live for. I pray for you and your family the strength to encourage each other, that when the right words are hard to come by, they come to yous easily. I pray for peace within their hearts to ease the aches and pains that they're enduring, and I pray for them to find comfort and solace in knowing they have grandchildren to look to them and for that they will fight for their right to live and be healthy.
I love you my friend and I find comfort everyday upon reading your status' and seeing the trials and tribulations you endure but instead of enduring with grimace, you endure with hope and faith and for that I am glad to know you and to call you friend! Know that I am always here and that I am not far away if you ever need me.
Hugz from Crystal Lameman :)