2 weeks ago.

I can't hardly believe 2 weeks ago i was able to talk to mom and hold her hand as she told us she was not scared and was ready to go to heaven, I feel like my world has crumbled into pieces that can't be put back together, I know i keep saying I miss her so much, i probably sound like a broken record by now, but i don't really care what people think, a huge part of my heart is missing, and will be like that till the day i am able to be with her again, I scream everyday on the inside and try to get though each day, that seems like the impossible sometimes.
I held her hand 2 weeks ago and said i would be okay,that i would find the way to keep going,  and now i sit here and try to keep my end of the promise up.
I have a video of her from 5 yr ago, it was a family camping trip we all went to for mom and dads anniversary (every 5 yrs we do it, and this yr we will too), she talks in the video her wishes and dreams for us for that weekend, and how much it means to her and dad the time we spend together as a family, its a 2 min talk, and its nice to hear her voice.
i don't know if life as i knew it will ever go back to normal, at least i got my sisters, my dad and some good friends to hold me up when all i want to do is fall.
Love you all thanks for being there for me.