its life!

I have learned in the past that life at times does hand us more than we think we can handle, like he first time i held my baby boy in my arms, the thought of "are we really ready for this?"and as time went on it was perfect, after 8months my brother at the age of 20yrs died, a peice of me went with him that day and he will always be missed,  we then got married (yes we married after we had our first baby), then 1yr after that we had our second child a little prefect princess, we were what we thought complete 1 boy, 1 girl and we are all healthy and happy. then life thought we needed to be shookin up and decided we needed just 1 more baby, and when our 2nd child was 2 1/2 we had another baby that almost died due to a placental abruption, (but thats a different post in its self), after our 3rd baby my mom had cervical cancer, and though we were all scared, she went into remmission after 6 weeks of cancer treatments, then just this year in septemeber we got the news that my dad has stage4 cancer in his neck and just to top things off my mom also has stage 4 cancer in her lungs, and is terminal. some days i want to throw my arms up and say I GIVE UP, but thats not how i want my kids to do things in life, so for now we take one day at a time and "hang on when your heart has had enough".