What it means to me.

So yesterday i came across a song that struck a tender note in my heart, here are the words to it.

                                                      A KISS GOOD-BYE.
When you loose something~It's all that you want back~You wait impatiently~But it don't work like that~~~~When you loose someone~The first thing that goes though your head~Is if you run fast enough you just might catch up~But it don't work like that~~~~(chorus) You just got to watch it fly~~~Stand there on the sidelines~Go on and swallow you pride~Know is gonna be alright~Wish it well and close your eyes~ With a kiss goodbye~~~~Well the hardest part~Yeah it hurts so bad~Is when she spreads her wings~ But it'd be a selfish thing to try and hold her back~But it don't work like that~~~(chorus) ~When you loose something~It's all that you want back~~~(chorus)~~~Like a kiss goodbye.

This song is from a group called Little big town, it can have many meanings for many people, I let Eric listen to i and he said or him he felt that i was referring to a little girl growing up.
To me i feel like this is what it like in my heart, with what is happening with my mom, i can't change the lung cancer, i cant keep her here for the comfort of having her here on earth that when the time comes we just have to be able to say goodbye and let her go.
And as my mom said to me when we all found out she had lung cancer that if anything comes from this if she looses her battle than we do get to say goodbye.
some days are harder than others, today is just one of those not easy days.